Thursday, May 23, 2013

Hips Don't Lie

I have now reached the pregnancy point where sleeping isn't fun anymore. You aren't supposed to sleep on your stomach or back, so that leaves me tossing and turning between the left and right sides ALL night long. I sleep on one side until that hip starts to hurt, then flip to the other. Then comes the period of time when BOTH hips are hurting so I sit upright in bed for awhile until one side feels good enough to lay on again. 

I swear this is nature's way of slowly making you so uncomfortable that when labor gets here you don't care about the pain. 

My focus object just may be a picture of myself sleeping on my stomach again. 

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

19 Weeks

I'm a week away from the halfway point! Physically I'm hanging in there, it's harder to find a comfortable sleeping position and I still tire very quickly, emotionally, I'm a basketcase of worries and anxiety.

Oh how I miss those handy anxiety meds.

Our first major baby purchase arrived today. After a lengthy research and several (hundred) pushes around BuyBuyBaby, we decided on the UppaBaby Cruz stroller! I'm so excited to try it out. It is a little early for such a big purchase, but I found a deal online and I just can't pass up a good coupon.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

18 Weeks

I had my 18 week appointment today. All looks well. I was worried about this appointment, between the dental fiasco and the fall I took in the past 2 weeks, I had all crossables crossed that everything would look ok. 

I'm still not terribly interested in food or having any true cravings. I am very into pizza though. I'd eat it every meal if I didn't think NJhusband would mutiny. 

Nursery-wise we (I say we, but really it's ALL NJhusband) are clearing the room (previously a home office) and trying to redistribute things throughout the rest of the house. I'll post some before and in-progress shots soon. 

2 weeks to go until the anatomy scan. Place your guesses now. Boy or Girl??

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Birthday Recap

Ringing in my 34th year went well! NJhusband made the requested Smores cake from the Smitten Kitchen cookbook which was AMAZEBALLS. I fully admit to having a second piece for breakfast this morning. 

I was very spoiled by my friends and family this year. I got many lovely messages on Facebook and through text. My mom sent me a FULL maternity wardrobe in various sizes, my sister gave me a Barnes and Noble giftcard, my bff gave me a lovely box of Jacques Torres chocolates, my mother-in-law gave me a super cool dessert cookbook and NJhusband got me a bouquet of gerber daisies (my favorite), a new manicure kit from Sephora and some jade jewelry. I felt like a very lucky girl.

You know, I don't mind getting older if it comes with cake and being spoiled every year!

Monday, May 13, 2013

Happy Birthday to ME!

It's my 34th birthday today!

I am celebrating by not-so patiently awaiting the SMORE'S cake I requested my husband bake for me! We have this tradition where every year I choose a new cake I want and he (sometimes with the help of his mom) bakes it for me.

BEST. Tradition. Ever!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Romeo and Juliet Eat Candy and Live

Unrivaled by Siri Mitchell was a sweet (pun intended) 20th century read. Lucy has high hopes that she can save her father's struggling candy factory with a new recipe, but when Charles, the son of her father's biggest competitor, comes to town she finds the job becomes nearly impossible. Avoiding their inexplicable connection also proves to be an insurmountable task.

Each chapter takes you into Lucy and Charlie's minds, respectively. The back and forth takes a bit of getting used to, but you come to look forward peeking into the other's perspective. This is truly a novel that displays the lesson that there is a his side, a her side and a truth that lies somewhere in between.

Bethany House provided me with a copy of this book to review, but I was not financially compensated in any way. The opinions expressed are my own and are based on my own observations and thoughts while reading this novel.

The Honest Company

Back while trying to conceive I wrote about trying out new environmentally-friendly products. I had given a bunch of products from The Honest Company a try. The bug spray and laundry detergent are still staples in my house. The lotion and body oil I still use as part of my lotion rotation.

So I'm CRAZY pleased to announce that I was chosen to be an Honest Company Ambassador! Stay tuned for more product reviews and GIVEAWAYS!!!!!

Saturday, May 11, 2013

I Sent My Mom Socks for Mothers Day

Really! I did!

A few months ago my mom called and said that she had hung some of their laundry outside and it had gone missing. Their yard is double fenced (because they have a pool) and backs up to a steep hill and there was NO wind at all that day. She just could NOT figure out what happened to their laundry. She even went so far as to ask my dad if he had taken the laundry in (to which he replied "Nope..haven't touched laundry in 40 years"). My dad did offer to walk around the back of the house down the hill to see if he could find the missing laundry. It turns out a SQUIRREL had a nest behind the house and was dragging my mom's laundry into his hole!

So for Mother's Day this year I sent my mom a box with a card, some clothespins I decorated myself, a package of socks and a giftcard to a restaurant.

Hope the Squirrel doesn't like Applebees.

Thursday, May 9, 2013

The Fall

I'm feeling slightly better after my last post. The healing powers of crying on a friend's shoulder and some meditation are amazing. 

We had a bit of a scare this week. Orion was playing/running in the yard and I went out to see what all the noise was about and he ended up running into me and knocking me over pretty hard. Thankfully I fell mostly ON him (he's fine!) and then just scraped my hands and hit my head on our metal table, but I'm ok. 

I THINK but I'm not 100% sure that I'm starting to feel movement now. I'm excited to start feeling the baby move more. It makes it easier to believe something is in there and I'm not just getting fat. LOL

Friday, May 3, 2013

A Broken Spirit

Anxiety and pregnancy don't mix well. The decision to go off all anxiety meds was not one that was taken lightly and involved  2 therapists, an OB, my husband and myself. I've had some ups and downs, but I've gone to every appointment, blood test and done every assignment given to me by my therapist. 

I had a wicked toothache over the weekend so I called my dentist and got an emergency appointment. I have SEVERE dental anxiety, so even getting myself to the dentist was a pretty good accomplishment to me. The appointment was a disaster. The short version is, my dentist said the following: Fixing your tooth will hurt the baby, NOT fixing your tooth will hurt your baby and OH LORD woman you need to go back on your meds. He even gave me a letter to give my OB asking if he could use a totally unsafe sedation medicine on me and at the end strongly recommending that I be on anxiety medication again. Let's just say I will not be taking either of his recommendations OR returning to that practice (this is also the practice where I had a traumatic wisdom tooth surgery, so I should have known better). 

But now I find my spirit completely broken. I feel like I've somehow done something that will hurt my baby. I have convinced myself I'm going to miscarry and I can't snap out of the feeling. I can't believe I'm letting a dentist get me down, yet I can't help to feel like I've done something wrong. 

Isn't 16 weeks a bit early to be feeling like a bad mom??