Friday, April 26, 2013

16 Weeks

16 weeks have passed and I still can't bring myself to write about this pregnancy. I still fear every day that it isn't going to stick, even though even scan, test and doctor's appointment tells me otherwise. And if nausea and food aversions are ANY indication of a healthy baby, then I'm certainly covered there. 

Hope is a tough thing for me. I never thought I'd get married until I was down the aisle. I never thought I would/could get pregnant until I did. I guess I won't believe I can get through 40 weeks of pregnancy until I do. I just wish I had the ability to enjoy it more than I have been. My therapist suggested getting a pregnancy journal and I did find one that I liked, but I feel guilt that the pages of the first 15 weeks are mostly blank. 

I keep hoping that after the big 20 week scan things will feel more real to me. Knowing a gender and assigning a name to the baby will make things seem more concrete. 

Until then, we call it "Peanut". 

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Pressure to Lose the Baby Weight Already??

I have gone a little book crazy the past few weeks. Pregnancy books, vaccine books, infant care books, you name it, it's on my reading list. 

I purchased a book online about newborn care. The package arrived today and I excitedly opened it up only to find that they had instead enclosed The South Beach Diet. 

While I appreciate the encouragement to lose the baby weight, I'm not quite there yet. LOL 

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Boston

I know I owe you all a major pregnancy update (14 weeks!), but like most everyone else, Boston is weighing on my mind. 

I have incredible respect for anyone who runs a marathon. The months of training, the sacrifices, the discipline...it truly amazes me and I applaud runners everywhere. I felt SO bad for those who weren't able to complete their race yesterday due to the bombings, especially those so close to the finish line as it occurred. It truly is heartbreaking and my prayers go out to them, as well as of course the injured. 

I do hope that as a society we don't hibernate or turn public events into lockdowns. Every time I walk through security barefoot at an airport I can't help but feel as though the terrorists always win because they create permanent security changes out of terror and not necessarily effectiveness. I can only hope marathons aren't forever marked by metal detectors, a no-cell phone policy or whatever new policies people come up with thought of in fear. 

I won't hold my breath though. 

Monday, April 1, 2013

FINALLY!

I am SO excited to be able to share with you that NJhusband and I are expecting our first child in October!!!!

I had my 12 week scan today and everything looked great!

It was an emotional journey to this point and we had an early scare, but I am absolutely THRILLED to share  this with you guys!!!!

*NOT an April Fool's joke, just FYI....my scan just happened to be today! lol