My feeder is inundated with Thanksgiving recipes, crafts and posts. I love to see everyone getting excited about a big meal, see the menu plans and even hear about travel woes, but for myself, this year I am skipping Thanksgiving. After 11 months of wedding planning, a couple of broken toes in last August and the recent news of my impending January 1 layoff (my company is folding), I am exhausted and out of spirit.
I am thankful for a loving husband, that I kept a job in this economy for this long, that our wedding is paid for. But at the same time I am thankful, I also am in possession of a broken spirit. We had a plan. We were going to get a puppy, we had future baby plans and now I feel like I have....status quo and no impending paycheck.
I know I have things to be thankful, but right now they are marred by my feeling scared for the future.
I'm mad that this is my newlywed bliss.